Little Lion Part 2

The story will start with details too heavy for your tiny mind to hold. From the dark pit where I pleaded for your life and mine. Just moments before you split away from my body and first took breath.

Up from the water, into the new morning. Surrounded by blood, and pain, and love. And an ache that would not go away.

The story will roll through your first year like thunder. It will tell of how we shrunk like two cold stars in a lost galaxy. How we screeched into deep empty space where no-one heard us. And how we drifted into a slipstream, a needle thin orbit that kept us alive.

It will also tell of the love that entwined our souls in golden threads. How I heard the murmur of each heartbeat. How I whispered silky words into your warm neck. How you were safe in the balm of my skin.

One day you will know this was not my design, that I carried a scar from the start. One day I will tell you about the disease that almost swallowed me. How it left me with a shattered body and a brittle mind. I hope you will not see a wounded soldier, but a warrior who tried to be strong  for too long.

The story will turn at the beginning of your second year. It will tell of blossoming and happiness. How you found your firm footing and your brave voice. And though I remained a crooked shadow, you wrapped me in the grace of your small soft hands.

Now you are two. You are so strong, my little lion. You are gentle, my little lamb. You are soaring, my little eagle. Insurrection gravity is wheeling at your wings.

Another year trails off into history. Look how far we’ve come. Can you see that wisp of light? It’s the hope of your bold future.

I don’t know how the story will end. But one day, my son, we will walk in the lightness of a thousand summery days. I will rise with my former strength and glide by your side. For now, this is your time.  Step into the sunlight.

Roar your mighty roar.

And shine.

Comments

  1. Debyl1 says

    Your words are so beautiful and show the amazing love of a mama for her child.
    They will be a treasure for your gorgeuos boy to hold onto one day.
    Thankyou for sharing so openly..
    May your little lion have a very Happy Birthday and a life where he can soar like an eagle while keeping the tenderness in heart of a gentle lamb.xx

  2. Cat says

    Deb, this is the first introduction I’ve had to your blog and wow what an introduction. I know your words as my own truth. I call my youngest Little Lion too and so much of the first year of both my boy’s lives is such a blur. I can feel your strength, your love and your optimism. Happy birthday to your little man and to you xxx
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  3. says

    Every time I come back to your beautiful corner of the internet, you strike me with your words. Your ability to craft them, to tell them.. And it always takes me so long to catch my breath afterwards. Always. xx

  4. says

    This is gloriously, beautifully written. And it has been wonderful to see, in your life and in your words, the healing that this little lion man has brought to you, as he blossoms. Happy birthday precious boy!
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  5. says

    Deb, I am struggling to get across how wonderful I found this piece of writing…It really is special. The crooked shadow, a story that rolls like thunder, the little lion…I loved very word.

    • Deb says

      Oh Gill, thank you so much. Means a lot – especially from a magnificent writer like yourself. Thanks also for your email – have bumped my head in the last 24 hours and I’m gradually getting back some clarity! – so will reply! xxx

  6. says

    Happy Birthday to your boy, my boy just had his on the weekend too. Scorpions. Lions. Your words are so marvellously evocative I honestly don’t know how you always do it. So clever. xx

  7. says

    I remember exactly when I read this the first time… I was on my phone, sitting in the car, waiting to pick the girls up from school. Such imagery, and beautiful words and feelings explained so well… glad you linked this up so I could read it again and leave a comment.
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